Today was the first day, apart from staying awake a bit long than I'd like to the night before like I always do the day before school It felt not much different then any other day of this summer. Sure I was happy to see some people that I looked forward to seeing that day, but the whole day felt...desensitize. It may have been because I knew this day would come since before I started high school at all. I dreaded the incoming senior year because it marked the last day of being a kid. I had no problem with growing up, in fact I see myself at a better life in the future, but I figured too many people blow off their childhood and next thing they know, it's gone. So to make sure I lived a fruitful life with little regrets, I did the opposite, I did as many extracurricular activities to make my school year go by faster. I acknowledged the passage of time which caused dread to me so that I may act when I felt so. As a result, the time it took me to get this far feels: just. I don't feel robbed of time. When peers ask me "can you believe we're seniors now?" I reply with "yeah, I can. I've had this in sight for quire some time". I've feel like I've grown a lot as a person, and going to school today, even it didn't feel like school, I felt relaxed and felt like I owned the place. I felt like nothing I do is unusual, because I am the new norm, one of the oldest member of students. I set examples by just me being me. It was refreshing to no longer have that level of uncertainty. My classes are short, I finish school before lunch for both of my A-days and B-days.
Today I have student government and I feel that I the power to go around and bring the student body to attention with some of our efforts without feeling overpowered by seniority or judgement of what the seniors think. I am the senior now. Senior inquiry a bit uncertain about how I would do, turned out to be just my style of class. I am happy with a lot of things now, and throughout the day I became empowered to bring a lot of effort into the programs I will go into, to end with a big bang. I want to bring girls to the innovation challenge team, I want to make a promotional video for robotics, I want to lead student government with statistics that I gathered to make more impact movements. I think this year will end up being the best.
The only issue I have to resolve now is conflicts between two hobbies: video production and running. Currently I have the opportunity to do cross country and shoot for the football team on Fridays, but I think I can fix the issue by training during my free periods if I can so I can record after school. If that doesn't work, i worked it out with my coach. Yes I would be missing important training, but training by myself is possible. He says it require discipline to keep up, but that is the initial reason I started sports, not to be competitive but to have as a discipline. My resent reason is fun which is fulfilled already(well so far, training as usual isn't where the fun is.It's at the meets). So if I feel my time is used well recording the football team on Fridays I will do both. I get a little to do it, but at this point no amount of money is worth my precious senior year time. This year is going to be great.First
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