Things are falling apart

I've never seen my mother's eyes look so tired as she described her feelings on the curent situtation. She is afraid that my father will pull of the same behavior of giving money away to his family in Mexico for not much justified reason than philanthropy for them and his mother. As I grow older I hear more and more about the things that go on in this family. My brother's inability to be a self driven and independant person, my dad's obsession with his mother and her well being, even my mother who is unsatisifed with this long distance marriage. She is tired.

I try what I can to make things better, I've kept an eye on my brother and arranged some career finding oppertunities with him and It seems to be working out. I just wished I had done it sooner. I always knew he was intrested in computers, but I failed to see that he lacked direction and motivation. He's been going to Free Geek, a non profit organization, where he's been taking classes on computer parts. He tells me he really likes it and it's the only time I've ever heard him say he likes a class. I hope that it will turn out for him.

As for my mother I beg her to give my father the benfit of the doubt on him turning in the money to benifit  our family, all of it. It is an odd thing that so much of the money is being siphoned into the construction of my grandmother's house. It makes little sense since the house will belong to my uncle when she passes away. Why can't my other family members pitch in? Why can't he use that money to build on our lives. He could stay with us longer here in Oregon, pay off the three houses and maybe devlop a buisness here.

But my mother says he's slow like my brother. He lacks judgement. It makes me feel like everything is not alright, and may never be. My mother tells me she's been lied to and treated worst than a friend, much less a wife.

In a year I'll be gone, off to college. I just hope my dad will have a plan and my brother will have founded deep roots of intrest in a career that will motivate him to study and advance in life. My family isn't normal. I've known this for a long time, but I never knew that I could change it. I must keep alert.