On the 6th of September My family and I went over to my uncles house for a general dinner. I was told it was a going away get together for my grandmother who had spent some time up here. To my surprise It actually disguised as a birthday celebration! I had no idea, and it felt nice. It was the first time that I celebrated a birthday with people outside my household family since 2003. And back then, when I was six years old, It was at Chucke Cheese. in Aloha Ever since we left to Alaska, birthday celebrations haven't quite been the same.
The seventh, my actual birthday, I decided to quit on the idea of going to the Zombie filming hosted by the Portland Film Fesitival, and instead hang out with my friend at the nickel arcade on belmont. We also went to eat a few things along Hawethorn. The whole experience was new to me, to the point that it was hard to decide on what to do, since it was the first time I saw friends on my birthday. As weird as it sounds, it is true. I didn't get to see all my friends since some of them went to Komoricon in Vancouver, but my good friends Donavan and Anthony spend the day with me. It was odd to be the man of honor, but i enjoyed it.
My social experiment turned out to prove what I expected. No one said happy birthday on Facebook, which means they probably rely on Facebook to remind them on the day of. I received a call from Johnmartin, my friend from Jefferson, And a text from Fiona and Arabella, also friends from Jefferson, which was genuine.
As a result from the experiment I spend a good amount of time on Thursday going around the school and asking my friends when their birthdays may be. I told some about my experiment and decided that in order to make a more genuine connection with them through their birthday, I'd have to set up a system to remind myself to mention it days before. Asking for birthdays through people off guard since no one does that, but there was a time where that was the only way. Anyways, I hope to buy a cupcake for their birthday. That would be nice.
As for today....I ran at cross country, did poorly in terms of time, but I felt that I preformed well. I also have a lot of things going on in my life and cross country just takes up a small portion of my dedication this year. I still expect to do better, but my priority is on other things like student government, video work for football, being a math tutor for Spanish speakers and general college things as well.
I feel fine. I like to be busy. I'd rather do well in a lot of things than do excellent in one area. It seems to work fine to me.
As a last thought. Seeing so many girls at the meet today made me think about my status of being single. I feel like I've done pretty well for myself during my time in High school, but one thing I've failed is to have a companion to who I can share my experiences with. It's a bit sad, and I'm not sure why it's like the way it is. There had been few of girls who asked me out last year, but I'm not sure if It's me being too picky, too busy, or if I'm just afraid of change. I feel like girls are easier to manage as friends since a girlfriend requires plenty of time and care for a relationship to flourish. I've convinced myself that I'm ready for a girlfriend by doing things to the masses of girls at school that I would only do to one girl, if she was my girlfriend. Like giving flowers, giving full attention when listening, and being nice. I think I have it in my to be a good guy, I guess I just haven't found the right one yet and it makes me afraid about that I haven't met the perfect one. I hope I don't end up a more bitter person.
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